being honest
Sometimes I put a front to the world, a lot of times I do. I don’t tell my friends i hate when they take pictures of me cuz i feel fat and ugly. That would make me seem weird and anal. So i say nothing. I don’t tell anyone but my boyfriend and people on here I feel fat. And even on here I write about positive feelings etc. I know those are important and i do have them most of the time. But, I haven’t been totally honest on this blog cuz i have other feelings too sometimes. I think myabe a step towards changing my body and my life is to be honest for once even if it is just on here.
Confession: I don’t think I would ever develop an eating disorder and I know they are terrible but sometimes I wish i could so I could lose weight quickly, Sometimes I wish throwing up didnt hurt so that i could rid myself of the guilt i feel when i go over my calorie range for the day.
Confession: There have been days I decided I wanted to be aneroxic to lose weight but I never lasted more than a day because my hunger takes over.
Don’t get me wrong im glad I dont have an eating disorder I’m just being honest as to what goes on in my head sometimes
Obviously I am far from perfect and have a lot of issues with food and body image.Although I do not think I am diagnosable with any particulair disorder
Confession : I dont think anyone REALLY knows( not even my boyfriend) the inner anguish I go through on a daily basis with my weight. It really effects me and my happiness, and sometimes it feels like I am at war with myself. I feel trapped and helpless sometimes because I don’t have any money to live the active lifestyle I used to. (It’s not like I haven’t tried to change that I’m pretty sure I just landed a job starting in june.)
Confesson: I eat to ease the stress of university
sooo yah…… ………honesty….
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besides having the fact that we differ with why we have stress–and ive stopped bingeing—but besides that–everything else youve said i feel the same way.
really nice honest blog. thanks for sharing. i have felt the same way many a time in my life.
I hope writting that blog made you feel a bit better. I think thats the best thing about this site.you can be 100% honest because it’s so anonomous and nobody judges you here. We just suport eachother, regardless of our backgrounds.
Chat to you soon girlie!
I am so impressed with your honesty. I too have wished I could have an eating disorder at times when I wanted to just be thin already! Truth be told I used to go to pro ana websites to try and get tips for quick weightloss. Clearly that did not work out for me. To be honest this is the first time I have ever told anyone this. Thank you for your honesty. It is nice to know I have not been alone in these thoughts.